Hi guys! It has been while since I posted here or on any of my social media. I have still been liking and responding to your comments, I just haven’t posted anything on my end. Below is the post that is getting personal with you, so let’s get started!
So what have I been up to?
Well, actually a lot. Don’t know where to start from but I will start with the fact that I just finished my third tax season (busy season). For those of you who don’t know what it means, let me explain.
Tax season or busy season is referred to the time frame from January through mid or end of April where the work load is insane. I work in public accounting, specifically in the real estate industry and governmental filings. I DON’T do taxes, but it doesn’t mean I am not busy. I am on the assurance team, so most of my time is spent auditing financial statements. I know it sounds boring, so I am gonna stop rambling about it.
Second, I just moved. It’s the same building that I lived in before and very similar outlay of the rooms. Promise, you guys won’t even notice a difference.
Third, I have been trying to catch up with friends and family after surviving the busy season. So every weekend I would schedule as much time with them as possible.
Why did you stop blogging?
I guess there’s no easy answer to this question. I stopped blogging for one reason, and continued not blogging for another reason. You know how they say, “Comparison is the thief of joy”? Well, that’s exactly what kept me from blogging for longer.
So it all started like this. I thought I would plan some posts for you guys in advance. Wake up earlier on weekend (which is when I get all my work done) and shoot extra content. However, as I go closer to the February timeline, it became merely impossible as I was working more than 75 hours a week at my day job. Yes that is Saturdays and Sundays included. So between having to work a crazy schedule, commuting for close to an hour and a half one way every day, blogging was no longer an option for me.
After I completed the tax season, I was a little hesitant with going back to blogging. I felt like that break gave me some time off. It may seem so easy and effortless, but in reality blogging a lot of work behind the scenes. So as I was hesitant I still kept active with all my comments, emails and DM questions. I liked back and commented back. And as I was staying engaged I noticed that I started comparing myself to the other bloggers sooo much. Especially the full time bloggers. So I started criticizing my content in such a ridiculous way. “Oh this photo could use a little more lighting,” or “uh, my smile looks soo fake, why did I smile this way.” As I continued doing it, it put me in this slump. I didn’t want to post my photos because I didn’t think they were good enough, and maybe not but I had fun making them. I didn’t want to stay engaged online because I started thinking, well what if I say the wrong thing. This just continued with the snowball effect.
So this past weekend when I was out with a friend, she asked me the same question as many of you have asked. “Why did you stop blogging?” I couldn’t give her a straight answer. There was so much involved I didn’t know how to explain it. So as I told her the story, she told me that I was just comparing myself to others too much and that I was being too hard on myself. I didn’t think that at the moment and quickly changed the conversation. However, when I started thinking about our conversation again, I knew she was right. So, as hard as it is and as unsure as I am writing this post, I am really looking forward to this new and exciting chapter.
As I am typing this I don’t have much scheduled for you guys. Yep, I will be honest and put it out there. I don’t have anything planned because just getting this post out is very making me want to cringe. But I know if I post this and it is public then I will just have to get back into the grind. I am going to try to post as often as possible, so stay tuned. Will be going on vacation for memorial day weekend – lots of fun posts coming your way 🙂
Thanks for reading!